winter1lover

It's hard for me to give you advice since I don't know u or what is happening in your life but all I can say is please don't give up that is never the answer. It sounds like other people are relying on you a lot when you feel you can't even cope with your own stuff and I can relate to how that feels. If u need someone to talk to u can message me if u want, I can't say I have ever really figured life out myself so I might not have any answers but it can help just to tell someone. I am sure you would be missed.

Thank you, I was just having a moment of self pity, I'll be okay. but if I ever need someone to talk to... ^_^

I know I don't know you, but please don't do that. I've had moments like that and I still do. It's a battle somedays and there are times when I think I would be better off dead, but then I realize that I want to live. Yes things get hard, they do for everyone, but life is special. We only get one life and can do so many amazing things in the short time we are given...we can even touch lives. Whatever you do, please don't give up. If all else fails talk to someone.It really does help.

Hi just wanted to check if u r feeling any better now. Hope u r ok.

Hun, while I do not know what you are going through, I can definately relate. I've tried to kill myself more times than I can count, and been hospitalized twice. Lots of fun. I've got a connective tissue disorder that causes great pain and I'm hospitalized for tons of other medical stuff. All the doctors and nurses know me, hell I know more of them than I have friends. I'll die early and I've been on disability since I was 18. A whopping 600 a month for utilities, rent, food, co pays. Plus I have 3 cats and a dog. In reality they are the only reason I stay alive for the time being. If I spend more than 15 minutes with a human being a day then I'm lucky. And there is four other people in this house, my parents, sister and grandmother. Physical and emotional abuse, emotional abuse still continues. My mom steals my money and my pain medication, which is worth enough to feed a small family. I've been called everything by my mom from a fucker to a whore. If I can continue to travel anymore I'm lucky. Sorry, just realized this is extremely depressing!! Situations are more or less what you make of them and in reality if we didn't know bad we wouldn't know good. I'm bipolar and I wave between bad and really bad. Right know I'm really bad but I'm trying to not cut myself off and sit and wait alone. I've got a nice gun so...if you ever wwant someone to talk to I'm always online. Take care, Christina