winter1lover

I can't stand this life, I'm trying, I'm trying to keep myself going, I couple myself up with work. I'm doing my best to live.
But I feel so hopeless, I just want to be gone, I know that it would hurt everyone around me, but I can't help it! I just want to scream that I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS SHIT!!!
Why does it have to fall on me? Why can't I just be able to live MY LIFE not everyone elses, it's not like I don't have enough Shit to deal with, adding everyone elses is getting to me.
I've promised myself I'd never try to do it again, I'd never put Mom through it, but I don't know if that's a promise I can keep... I don't know anymore.
I doubt anyone would notice, I doubt I'd even be missed.

OOOKKKAAAYYY, I'm not normally found posting anything with a lot of text... unless it's my myspace blog which is my ranting page.
Okay so I'm posting this to say that I will be updating a lot sunday because I will have wonderful picture from the AFI show in Boca Raton... if this storm lets up, my friends house is now a POS because the storm blew it apart, a wonderful five bedroom house on the water *sighs* pity be to her. anyway I'm going to get off the comp before the lightning blows it up.
so piece out, if everything works out, I will have some lovely pictures up on sunday, finished my pic of Jade for you guys, so have fun!!!!!!!!!!!

Winter